It's been a while...

since I've had one of those days. I'm very thankful they don't come often.
For some reason it came yesterday.

There is still some gunk left in my soul from old situations.

Maybe it was a combination of things...
that poem from J yesterday
the conversation with A. about art and drawing again
and my dreams of having a show based on the experiences I've had
seeing my friends who have a relationship that's amazing
exposing my frustration about being single and never being asked out
repeatedly seeing women line up dude after dude...sometimes with no breaks in between them

I don't get it. But it all came flooding in yesterday.

For a little while I didn't want to wake up this morning.

Today is better.